I. Am. So. Motivated!

Sort of....

OK, not really....

I took this whole week off to get everything in order for our big move. It's already Wednesday and here is my list of accomplishments:

• Saturday was my birthday so I used that time to celebrate with my family via walking around the Biltmore estate, driving on the Blue Ridge Parkway and getting presents consisting of the first season of Merlin, the most recent release of Twilight and a Doctor Who t-shirt....Yes. I. Am. Cool.
• Sunday, we looked at houses, the first one suspect of a former Meth lab, the second with a lovely view of the mountains and a trailer park, the third we couldn't find and the forth we couldn't get in contact with the owner....I also had an interview....still awaiting results on this one.
• Monday, we looked at a couple more houses and fell in love with the last one we viewed.
• Tuesday, we realized that we were jumping the gun and that picking the house with the flood damage in the basement and the extra room adorned with wood paneling was not love at first sight but mere desperation of needing to find something quick...I spent the rest of the day watching Make it, Or Break It and getting pumped up to see The Hunger Games. (Which. Was. AWESOME!)
• Wednesday (today), I have already contacted the remaining people who haven't RSVP'd to our going away party (Really? How hard is it to press the yes, no, or maybe button?), sort of watched the last episode of SMASH, which quite frankly I'm about done with, while carousing my favorite blogs and laughing hysterically at pictures of otters that look like Benedict Cumberbatch. ( http://redscharlach.tumblr.com/day/2012/03/19)...Now those are some good looking otters with nice cheek bones....

I had so many aspirations of succeeding this week and feel like I have gotten nowhere. I'm so stressed that I have unintentionally (but am still delighted) lost another pound and a half, my face is breaking out and I have dark circles under my eyes.I keep finding myself checking craigslist over and lover again for a miracle dream house that apparently doesn't exist and every time I hear a noise, I jump at the possibility that it could be a job calling, asking me to be their new employee.

I. Want. To. Scream.

And cry and punch myself in the face for not letting myself be excited about this wonderful new endeavor we are about to embark on. It's a huge deal and one of our biggest dreams we have been fighting to accomplish over the past 3 years. And we're doing it....I'm just frustrated because everything isn't falling perfectly into place. I wish I could just let go and be patient and positive and not worry constantly about every little "to do" we need to get done. We have a month from yesterday and I've already gotten a lot of the little "stuff" packed. And we picked up another load of boxes last night so I should be able to get most of the rest of it packed during the remainder of this week....I guess that's something?

But I think right now, I might just "take a break" and update our Netflix Que. That's sure to get me focused....Ooooh, and I just remembered we borrowed the second season of Downton Abbey from my Mom.....

Sweet!